Sunday the new monday?

Today is a bad day.
In so many ways too. My last day off seems like it could disappear any minute now and all I want to do is nothing...

I can´t even gather the strength to write anything positive right now. I just hope it will change and I can continue my day with just trying to relax before the hell breaks loose tomorrow.

Anyways...this is me. My last picture in profilepic-game. I made it myself. Pretty good, right?

It can only get better...

...right?

A fantastic start of the day. Was at work at 7am today to meet a carpenter and an electrician who would do the final touches around a UPS-solution we have to maybe try to save our equipment from breaking when the power decides to mess with us again.

No one showed up. So we took a cup of coffee and the chef at location made some scrambled eggs for us. at 8.30 we gave up. Not a word from either the carpenter or the electrician. Thank you very much.

Came back to the hotel and no Internet...since last night. Fantastic start of the day. Really.
But! I got a good breakfast and the "eat at least three times a day" might actually be possible today :)
So now I will have a little fight with the reception and after that it could only get better. Right?
Even with the start of the day I can´t go around and be moody. Last night´s skype is still fresh in mind and I am the happiest man every time I just stop what I am doing and think about you. The best stainremover, sunreflector, moodbooster there is.

Let´s get a better day from now on, shall we?

Waiting

What have I said about waiting?
Yeah, that´s right, I hate it. That´s why I, every time I wait for something I always get really really restless.
I have no problems with doing nothing as long as I have something to do at the same time.
And now, I am waiting for the creativity to strike. I have a a goal with my new creative project, but the creativity is gone. I wait for it to strike really hard, brutally on my mind.
And until it strikes I just wait.

Had a fucked up sleep tonight/today. Cannot fall asleep before 4.30am any more. Don´t know why.
And today when I tried to get some sleep I just kept being in a half awake mode, where I could see the light from the sun, and I knew I was in bed. But the dreams where still there. I had company in bed, but every time I tried to wake up a bit to enjoy the happiness of having her close again she was gone. Every time she said something and I tried to ask what she said, or answer her she was gone again. It was important questions...
Strange sleep. But it was worth it, she was close to me.

Ok, back to the waiting again. Creativity, hit me hard!

Hard to understand

It is either forbidden to go inside the engine.

OR, it say´s it is not a mensroom.

Well, either of it would be bad, so I guess it is a good sign?

Shame on me!

I know I should write something daily.
Well, what can I say? It has been loads of work, no sleep at all and no camera to take pictures with.

But it will change. Today is my day off and I have slept a lot, and just relaxed. So now my strenght is back no normal and I will start again!

I got a great idea last night, just before going to sleep. So I am working on it right now. And after the thinking stadium it is off to making it real. I hope something almost good comes out in the other end of this work. I like when the creativity strikes hard sometimes. The only and biggest problem is that I have no idea how to do it...so it will be some sort of learn by mistakes thing.

Another good thing. Looks like I get to see my girl again sooner than I expected, and that makes me happier than ever!

I like gifts!

It knocked on my door just now. I opened and there was the "subsitute D.O.P" standing with a bag in his hand.
He just wanted to thank for a really good job before he left Alanya.

So now, I am doing the last touchups at today´s work, while sipping a real cup of coffee!
And I just enjoy myself...and tonight there is Skype on the menu, without any work.

This day is good! My life is even better. I am joyful now, I think I could explode any minute.

Work...

Sent some e-mails to the office today about really important things regarding everything from spareparts to my future.
Could not stand sitting in front of the computer anymore so I left for some fresh air and a kebab. And of course a trip to location.
Easier to think about nothing when there are a thousand things to do.

Came back to the hotel and checked my work-mail. Nothing.
Not even a: "No, forget it."
Well you could see it from two angles. Good to not get a no...but frustrating to get no answer.

My hands are really bad today, almost no feeling at all and a bit sore. I know it will be better tomorrow, just frustrating again.

But still, in all the frustration. I have found my happy thought! Almost making me fly.
I like feeling happy, especially now, when it is real and pure happiness.
So to hell with my hands for now. Time for meetings and some more work, the easiest way to hide.

...

Every morning when I wake up it is the same...so far away!

And also having a stomachpain makes this an epic day in the "this days sucks"-scale.

Please bring me something good soon.

Best tootbrush...

Let me tell you a little story.

I got recommendations from my Slacker-friend Dyeremose about a toothbrush.
So, when I came to the store I found it. The Pepsodent 360 Surround!
The king among toothbrushes. So I bought it and only the design alone is fantastic.

 

And then I found a new toothpaste too!

Ok, I admit it. I am a sucker for cool design.

It looks so fresh!

And then, just as a bonus. You get a smurfblue mouth! :)

Fresh!

yeah...

One stupid thing was the mudwrestling at work...

NOT good for the equipment.

The other stupid thing is the warningtext on the pool.

What can I say...the thought of diving never struck my mind,

not even before saw the text.

More or less me?

The other day I found a scale at work and I thought: Interesting, I wonder if I gained some weight?
So up we go, both feet and slowly looking down.

To be honest I was shocked. I have, in less than a year dropped more than 10kg´s.
So now my match weight is 68.8 kilos.
Oh, my bad, it was with my workshorts on...66 kg´s.
I have lost 2kg´s since I left Sweden in May...

And with this information I have absolutely nothing to say. Nothing substantial what so ever.
It is just less me than ever...

Some other really good information I can give you and you will not be able to use for anything is that if you buy coconut-candy, it is absolutely impossible to eat only one...
If you don´t believe me I dare you to try!

Time for work, no more nonsens.

A funny game...

I just wanted to tell you about a game I am playing on Facebook.
Me and my girlfriend has since a couple of weeks ago played a kind of profile picture game.
I started with changing my pic, and then she has to take a similar picture as soon as possible and upload to her account.
It is a great game and we have managed to get some funny results.

This is the last round:

 

Now it is my turn to come up with a new picture... it is hard, but fun!

So take it from a grown up: get up from the computer, go out and play you too!

Time for myself...

...and I hate it.

For those who know me, I guess you have all seen a real change in my mood over the last weeks.
And now it is over the roof. I am as happy as possibly can be. The silly smile, that almost cracks the head is more or less always in place.
And for those who doesn´t know me, I can just say my blog has been a cynical place before...
I know it is a risk with saying this. A risk of hurting people, but I can´t help it.
I can´t think of ever feeling this kind of happiness. I am really, truly in Love.
It tickles in my stomach and I feel warm from the inside and out. An amazing thing is that I can also still see clearly. I am not blinded.
I have met a girl who is on the same wavelenght as me in all levels and even if there is hundreds of miles between us at his moment, it feels so easy and uncomplicated. Even when I know there is so many pieces in the puzzle that needs to fall to place before our future is on the track I want and wish for.
But I have a good feeling about it and I just do what I really hate...wait. But it is ok, because I know that I am not doing it alone.
Amazing feeling that, not being alone.

I even tried the vacation thingy people talk so much about. Almost 5 days. And I don´t know how I can describe it with words. Everything was just... perfect.

I sit in my hotelroom now, alone. And yes, I am happy, but right now, at his moment I feel...not sad, but a bit low. But it is a strange kind of blue. Because at the same time I don´t feel alone. And I know that I am not alone. So my mood goes up and down like a bouncing ball. But feeling low is not a bad thing either. It is a good kind of low, it is because I really miss her. It is just a new feeling and I need to get used to it. With the knowledge that I love someone who loves me back I could surely endure worse things.

And with those, the deepest thought´s I think I have ever written on this blog I just want to do one last thing. I am proud, honoured and really happy to present my girlfriend to the world.

This is the real deal.

Nostalgic...

When I was a small boy I remember that

I ate this candy a lot during a period.

It is chewinggum, that really has a bad taste,

but I liked the small papers inside.

I thought they were nice and had

a very nice message to tell...

And I still think they are on the spot!

When in Turkey

Do NOT try this candy!

The taste is...bad.

End of message.

Penthouse?

If you ever want to rent an apartment in Alanya,

don´t go for the penthouse in Centrum Apart Hotel.

Unless you want an apartment without a view

from the balcony of course...

Compliment?

The nightguard at work looked at some of my pictures on Facebook and then said:
You look like Chuck Norris!

I really don´t know if I should take that as a compliment or an insult...
Chuck Norris is cool, but he looks like a bag of gravel doesn´t he?

World Classic

Old Fashioned is a real World Classic, but I never heard about the ingredient "Orange Silence" before...